look you in the eye

ok. so.

since september 2009, i have.

-graduated mville. finally. and just in time, the school seems to be going down the shitter under the new president.

-done a lot of shows. after m'ado (which was an amazing experience that i miss all the time), i did brigadoon (at mville...sneaky...), the laramie project (which was kind of a brutal experience simply because i had too much going on at the time and miscommunication with the director, etc...), a world premiere of a short play called "got pot?" which was fun, and a cabaret about love for valentine's day. then...

-i worked for the texas shakespeare festival. which was a LONG ten weeks in the middle of east texas, but a wonderful experience. first professional gig, woot. did as you like it, two gents and the children's show, the tortoise and the hare. last time i ever take an internship position, but good fun.

-worked for esprit and sunglass hut. woot retail. esprit was meh, but i'm kind of obsessed with my sunglass hut job. i worked at four different locations in fairfield county and i may be transferring to the city because...

-in two weeks (!) i am moving to astoria, NY. wow. amazing. bout fucking time. holy hell. i need that job at the hut, because i don't have anything saved, lol. responsible me.

-found someone i'm crazy about. it's wierd, because we met before texas and we've been together from a distance longer than we have been near each other, but it seems like it's going wonderfully. we're getting relationshippy and not just first meeting kind of thing. it's exciting. not really scary, just exciting. and it makes me smile.


so that's pretty much all the major events. lots of little things along the way. mostly just hanging with mona and maya and the gang. lots of drinking and partying and being a twenty something.


hopefully i'll keep this up more now that i've got major life changes occuring.

way too much

i need to start writing in this again. not now, i just want to have a record of these years.

big update(s) soon.

well...

its been awhile hasn't it?

what a fucking awesome summer. pippin was, to say the least, life changing. as monica and i discussed, nothing physically changed in our lives, we're just facing a completely different direction.

much ado is now up, and going very well. i'm quite proud of my cast (and i guess of myself too). it was really a quite easy process (minus losing actors and having to be in it too...)

got suckered into one last show at manhattanville...but its with the cherries, and i'm playing a gene kelly role...holy crap. exciting.

yeah. oh, and a new job at esprit!! which is meh, but its money (which i DESPERATELY need)

Everything's going so well!

Pippin is up, to mostly rave reviews, at least from people we know. No official reviewer has released anything, but who cares? It's filling seats in a theatre that goes empty too often.

My own little pet directing project, Much Ado is well on its way. Production meeting yesterday went FABULOUSLY, and auditions are less than a week away. Very exciting stuff.

I may have a post-camp job!!



Things are really going well.

hippie

i want to be one.

also, new york city gays are wonderful. the city in general is wonderful.

i love NOT being jaded.

well

good month. little sister graduated high school, which is bizarre. lots of partying, more rehearsing, surprisingly minimal spending of money.

next on my vague musical theatre skill set to do list - learn to flip lower.

yah, i dont know why i'm up either. i'm supposed to help my mother move into a science camp thing, but it's so god damned early...

shakespeare camp starts next week!!

holy shit

wow, it's been awhile.


so, to summarize, as if i'd forget. since the last entry:

- i failed classes, thus not graduating. i will be graduating january 2010, and then walking in may. sucks, but so it is.

- was diagnosed (?) with depression. but not severe enough for medication. i spent the last two months of school fighting this. wish i'd sought out help a long time earlier. lesson for the future.

- met an awesome man. fun. serious, but not in the way these things usually are. friendship more than anything else, though there is a lot of else.

- put up a senior thesis project. went ok. learned what i need to work on, which is the most important thing.

- watched my friends graduate, to mixed emotions.

- got cast as pippin (!), which is a dream role. it's going very well so far i think. it's been a HUGE confidence boost. not so much getting cast as the fact that i've been actually applying myself to it and getting results. going to keep doing that.

- got a directing gig (!) doing much ado (!). holy crap. this i'm still nervous for, but i've got a lot more time. auditions the weekend after pippin closes. i never do rest do i?

- welcomed a lot of old friends back into my life. home just feels better.

- haven't found a job yet...but have been working on it...something will come through soon...

- decided to devote more time to being happy. why bother temporizing over what isn't working? the solution will appear in time.



overall...2009 was awful...until about may 13th or so. i still don't know where i want to go, or what i want to do...not trying to quote pippin, honestly...that's creepy. but for now, that's ok. i WILL find something that makes this worthwhile. shakespeare alone is reason to be alive.

i can be happy. i'm almost here.