wow, it's been awhile.
so, to summarize, as if i'd forget. since the last entry:
- i failed classes, thus not graduating. i will be graduating january 2010, and then walking in may. sucks, but so it is.
- was diagnosed (?) with depression. but not severe enough for medication. i spent the last two months of school fighting this. wish i'd sought out help a long time earlier. lesson for the future.
- met an awesome man. fun. serious, but not in the way these things usually are. friendship more than anything else, though there is a lot of else.
- put up a senior thesis project. went ok. learned what i need to work on, which is the most important thing.
- watched my friends graduate, to mixed emotions.
- got cast as pippin (!), which is a dream role. it's going very well so far i think. it's been a HUGE confidence boost. not so much getting cast as the fact that i've been actually applying myself to it and getting results. going to keep doing that.
- got a directing gig (!) doing much ado (!). holy crap. this i'm still nervous for, but i've got a lot more time. auditions the weekend after pippin closes. i never do rest do i?
- welcomed a lot of old friends back into my life. home just feels better.
- haven't found a job yet...but have been working on it...something will come through soon...
- decided to devote more time to being happy. why bother temporizing over what isn't working? the solution will appear in time.
overall...2009 was awful...until about may 13th or so. i still don't know where i want to go, or what i want to do...not trying to quote pippin, honestly...that's creepy. but for now, that's ok. i WILL find something that makes this worthwhile. shakespeare alone is reason to be alive.
i can be happy. i'm almost here.
